I’m Addicted and I Can’t Stop

“When hope and love has been lost and you fall to the ground, you must find a way. When the darkness descends and your told it’s the end, you must find a way.”

– Muse, Dig Down

Muse has forever been my own personal professed muse. I feel like their music is directly linked to the outline of my book series. There are so many times in my life when I have pulled away from those around me and sunk into the depths of my mind. I become supremely focused on the inner workings of my book, or like now I am focused on my writing in general. I pull inward and focus on the emotion of what I am feeling. The most useful thing for me when I do this is listening to music. I feel like it not only helps me expose the emotions I am feeling, but it also helps me remain connected to ground instead of floating up into the clouds. Muse is always there to pull me back into the present, keeping my mind on that edge between focus and distraction when it comes to writing versus living outside of the space of my laptop screen.

Right now I am entrenched in emotion. I can feel the weight of it pressing on me and I feel the need to resurface but I can’t. I am so deeply buried beneath that I need to write to find my way out again. Memories of my many emotions and experiences flood my brain and I am now fully gone it feels like. Muse is a tether, my book an outlet, and my blog is my reach to the masses. It’s lonely here in the world of words and blank pages.

I wish I could tell you this would be the last time but it won’t be. It can’t be. I am addicted to the feel of it. I need it. I crave it. And I’m not ready to let it go. I stare out on the horizon line of my inner thoughts and I see nothing but unending beauty and wonder. It’s beautiful in here, truly amazing. I will share it with you, one blog at a time….

 

 

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